Every single day of my life for the past few days, people have been telling me that my time will come, but.. I still wonder if it's worth it... And for how long will i have to wait? The anxiety drives me to ideas that no man dares to stick with...
Deceptions in life may be caused by minor reasons, or major occurs.. For me, is just a matter of waiting the right time to yell out loud so everybody can hear, that I DO care about things happening in front of me. A new acquisition, a prize of "merit", or even the acceptance in a good college may be the causes for this "beautiful" picture, but.. Once in a while.. You DO get offended with the things that are happening... Does anyone cares about me? Did anyone asked me about personal opinion for something? Anything? That's what I thought...
I'm not the happiest person in the world right now, but i wouldn't call it a REAL depression unless my feelings leads me towards acts that I might regret doing, or I don't even bother to regret anymore as in consequence...
My real goal right now, the thing I'm willing with all my strength, is to see honesty in people's eyes and mostly in people's hearts, so that could affect people's decisions for life as itself..
Deceptions in life may be caused by minor reasons, or major occurs.. For me, is just a matter of waiting the right time to yell out loud so everybody can hear, that I DO care about things happening in front of me. A new acquisition, a prize of "merit", or even the acceptance in a good college may be the causes for this "beautiful" picture, but.. Once in a while.. You DO get offended with the things that are happening... Does anyone cares about me? Did anyone asked me about personal opinion for something? Anything? That's what I thought...
I'm not the happiest person in the world right now, but i wouldn't call it a REAL depression unless my feelings leads me towards acts that I might regret doing, or I don't even bother to regret anymore as in consequence...
Brazilians has this fame for "not giving up upon any challenge they face". That said, I can't consider myself a true Brazilian... My goal for a happy life is based on a dreamy life with almost impossible consequences... That's very stimulating, and keeps me going every day wondering if my future will be successful, full of my dreams coming true, happiness, and the most difficult of all: JUSTICE. I still wonder if there's justice in the world, but i don't care anymore... "Life isn't fair to those who play by the rules" once my grandpa advised me. Don't matter what it takes, I'll fight for Justice and Equality for those who REALLY deserve. You can call that "not giving up", It will depends on how involved you are with myself... Those who live around me, real close, can tell the unfairness I've been for the past 17 years, and I started noticing about 3 or 4 years ago.. It opened my eyes to my companionship, siblings, parents, family, and real brothers...
My real goal right now, the thing I'm willing with all my strength, is to see honesty in people's eyes and mostly in people's hearts, so that could affect people's decisions for life as itself..
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